By GoddessDesiree
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Hello, Iโm GoddessDesiree, fiancรฉe, mother of 3 and a woman with an eating disorder and body imaging issues ๐ค
Iโve slightly debated writing this, but what the hell! With the possibility it could explain me as a person a bit better, and help someone else in a similar boat, Whatโs the worst that could happen?
I started All Things Worn in February 2023, but decided to take myself off for a few weeks as I wasnโt sure I had the confidence in me to do so.
Even after coming back, this thought still flies through my head sometimes quite viciously. but Iโm more confident than Iโve ever been, let me explain why.I had my first child at 17, Iโve carried big 3 times and my body stretched all over, this includes my back, my thighs, my arms, my breasts, and of course my stomach.
I was in a very abusive relationship for a long time, more so after having a child, being told my body was a reminder of a zebra crossing, being laughed at and being told Iโm too fat and being cheated on consistently. I found myself being the women who hid her body under oversized jumpers, wearing my hood up and relying on cannabis to bring a smile to my face.
After getting myself away from this situation I lost 3 stone, and I had that slight confidence and the attention I craved after being told nobody would ever find me desirable again.
New relationship arises, wonderful! NOT. Iโve gone back round in a circle. the same comments thrown at me, knocked me all the way back down again, gained back all the weight Iโd lost, hair falling out, always crying โwhy arenโt I good enough? Will I ever be?โ
Fast forward! I fell pregnant with my second after finding love and trust in a new partner the thought of ever being bigger to me again scared the life out of me, but I knew in my heart Iโd be loved and admired by him.
After having my baby, I had to go through all of that again, losing 3 stone and looking in the mirror at my body and tearing up and thinking โWhy is this happening to me? Iโm only 21โฆโ I was already prepared to keep my body hidden forever, from my partner, from anybody.
After having my 3rd baby, within a few weeks people were saying to me โyouโre too thinโ โyou need to eat moreโ โyou look terribleโ โyou look unwellโ.
I was thinner than I was pre pregnancy, in fact thinner than Iโd ever been. But still looking in the mirror in size 6-8 clothing thatโs too loose and feeling absolutely vile, crying and just wanting to wrap myself up in a blanket and hide.
After a while I found myself going to the doctors and after tests and appointments, I was told I have the eating disorder Anorexia Nervosa.
Anorexia is a big battle to win, pair that with body dysmorphia? Itโs a party.
Getting on those scales every day, 4 times a day, โฆ Iโve gone up by 1lb since this morning and Iโm bloated?! Now all of a sudden you begin to notice every single flaw you THINK you have, just in that 1lb difference.
Casually browsing the internet, and Iโd read something about selling feet pictures, I was thinking HMMM wouldnโt that be a dream? Somebody would pay to see my feet, yeah alright! ๐คฃ
I joined ATW and realised itโs more than feet pictures, I can see all these beautiful confident women, I can see fetishes of my own normalised! I see bodyโs being embraced. Itโs beautiful.
I remember first receiving messages complimenting my beauty and my body, OH ALSO MY FEET! ๐
I felt this instant feeling of CONFIDENCE.
Thatโs a great word isnโt it? To be and to feel confident, a feeling I hadnโt felt for a long time, and after a while Iโve f*cking smashed it, but I wouldnโt have if it wasnโt for this community ๐ค
Sometimes my mood will get shot down naturally and Iโll shy away from things until Iโm feeling it, and hopefully this will explain why. Thereโs still a long road ahead for me, which is why you tend to see more photos of my face then my body on the dash ๐ค
Sometimes who you may believe is the most confident woman isnโt. Treat anybody in this world the way youโd wish to be treated yourself, our appearance doesnโt define who we are inside ๐ค
I truly have met some amazing people through ATW, people Iโll keep near and dear to me for a very long time ๐ค
If youโve taken the time to read this, thank you. Stay beautiful, humble and remember that kindness always wins ๐ค
GoddessDesiree xx
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