How ATW Has Helped Me Cope With Loss

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How ATW Has Helped Me Cope With Loss

TRIGGER WARNING: Miscarriage, Child Loss

My First Pregnancy

In May 2022, I found out I was pregnant, and my husband and I were absolutely thrilled and over the moon! I started my journey through ATW at that time and loved every second from creating relationships, building trust and gaining confidence in myself and in my pregnancy. Watching my body grow and change and create life was the most incredible thing I had ever been a part of. I felt great, I wasn’t sick at all, I was glowing and beyond happy where life had taken me. In August, we got a poor prognosis of our baby boy and were told he wouldn’t survive after birth due to defects and health issues with his heart, brain and other organs. I decided to take a break from selling panties and other items to focus on my own mental health and to figure out everything with my first pregnancy.

In September 2022, we made the best decision we could have for our family and to prevent our little boy from suffering. Three days after my procedure, I felt good and I thought I was doing okay, until I woke up and realized all my milk had come in. I started pumping and realized how big of a fetish it is for a lot of buyers! I started therapy and tried to focus on my happiness and my health. No matter how hard I was trying to be happy and healthy, I was depressed and couldn’t stop myself from crying constantly and just sitting there staring into the distance, stuck in my own head. I went to my doctor and was finally prescribed depression medication which has made a huge difference for me!

My Rainbow Baby

We got the “all clear” and were so excited to start trying again! My second cycle after my procedure we found out we were pregnant again. I was thrilled, this was my rainbow baby. This was my chance to make it all right and get back to being myself, or so I thought it was. About a month ago, after working night shift, I came home to sleep and when I woke up, I was bleeding heavily. I immediately started freaking out and crying hysterically. I went to my OB, and it was a confirmed miscarriage which absolutely devastated me.

After my miscarriage I realized I needed to regain my confidence and focus on myself and let life just happen when it was ready. I created a new ATW account and got right back to doing what I do best! Creating relationships, building trust and providing excellent products and customer service has been a huge game changer for me! My first month back I was able to focus solely on myself and creating items that bring joy to others, which in turn, brings an immense amount of joy to myself.

My Journey on ATW

Since being back, I have gained 24 – 5-star reviews, 130 followers, 14 badges, 11,398 profile views and have completed 95 orders for happy, returning customers! Even though I still struggle from the trauma, ATW has been an amazing outlet for myself to stay busy, keep my mind occupied, and to enjoy creating and helping others fulfill their fantasies. It has also been a huge eye opener for myself and my own kinks and fantasies. It has spiced up my relationship with my husband in the bedroom and has even brought out some new kinks of his too! I have met so many amazing buyers who I have created strong relationships with and whom I consider to be close friends and even family. This community is kind, supportive and overall is just amazing and I’m beyond proud to be a part of it all. I have also met some incredible fellow sellers on ATW who have made my journey beyond incredible from giving shout outs, rewarding badges, and just from supporting one another. I look forward to seeing where this journey takes me and hopefully once we do conceive again, I’ll be able to share my journey through ATW and with my fellow sellers and long-term buyers and will provide quality, top-notch products and content!

My Journey Through Child Loss

The loss of a child is a devastating and traumatic experience for parents and family members. It can lead to intense and prolonged grief, complicated by feelings of guilt, anger, and despair. Coping with child loss can involve seeking support from loved ones, joining support groups, and seeking professional help, such as therapy or counseling. Taking care of oneself through self-care practices, such as exercise, meditation, and time in nature, can also help with the healing process. It's essential to allow oneself to grieve and to take the time needed to process the loss. With time and support, it's possible to find a new sense of normalcy and hope for the future, while honoring the memory of the child.

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Little_aussiebabe @MisstressLeyla thankyou hun, it's a very long journey xx

Little_aussiebabe @NataliaXO thankyou hun x my inbox is open to anyone ❤️📬

MisstressLeyla @Little_aussiebabe 💔😭💔😭 this here brakes my heart.... I hope you beat all of it and your wishes become true♥️

NataliaXO @Little_aussiebabe Thank you so much 😭😭 I’m so sorry for your losses babe❤️❤️

Little_aussiebabe And stage 4 * Endometriosis, sorry can't type through the tears!!!!!

Little_aussiebabe Fourth miss carriage * not court.

Little_aussiebabe Omg I had tears reading that. I am so sorry🙏❤️ I can relate to this, I had my court miss carriage a little over a month ago. Becuase I have stage 3 Endometriosis, adeynomiosis, pcos, I'm going through menopause at 32 and I have the mthfr mutation gene. We can't do ivf becuase of all of this, I found out 2 days ago 2 new things contributing to my losses that no one even would expect! I have been grieving for the past 10 years, and trying to get pregnant for 10 years, so please if you ever want someone to talk to. I am 100% here for you! This is why I started Atw to pay for my next Endometriosis removal surgery because it's back all over my ovaries, but also it's a wonderful distraction and I've learned alot and met so many amazing people! Don't loose hope 🌈 xxxx

NataliaXO @MidwestMom Thank you love, I truly appreciate that ❤️

MidwestMom Sending you all of my love. I was forced with the same impossible situation and it broke my heart. If you ever need a friend, my inbox is always open.

NataliaXO @Gingermilf Thank you love ❤️

NataliaXO @Shy_Violet_99 Thank you babe 🥰🥰

NataliaXO @Honeypchs Thank you ❤️❤️

Gingermilf Sending my heartfelt love to you ❤️ ♥️ xx

Shy_Violet_99 Sending love❤️. I'm glad you were able to find an avenue of healing. Thank you for sharing your story ❤️

Honeypchs Sending lots of love your way ❤️❤️❤️ Thank you for sharing.

NataliaXO @Juicy_X_Josie Thank you love ❤️

Juicy_X_Josie I can’t imagine the heartache of your losses. Thank you for sharing your story and I’m glad ATW has been a support for you.

NataliaXO @LuckyTrixCharmsLittleBoudoir Awe thank you babe! That means the world to me

LuckyTrixCharmsLittleBoudoir @NataliaXO Kisses and hugs! I love this community because of people like you here.

NataliaXO @Jemfoxx Thank you love ❤️

Jemfoxx Sending all my love 😘 What a journey.! Xx

NataliaXO @Jonboy282 Thank you babe 🥰

Jonboy282 Thank you for sharing beautifully written ❤️

NataliaXO @GingerPhoenix Absolutely ❤️

NataliaXO @Flarity Thank you❤️

Flarity Breathtakingly honest and obviously very hard to share such unfortunate instances. Admire you for this, I'm sorry for what you went through, and thank you for allowing everyone of us to see such a vulnerable side of yours ❤

GingerPhoenix :: hugs :: Thank you for posting!

NataliaXO @Littlmouse18 Thank you love ❤️

NataliaXO @MisstressLeyla Thank you so much! It makes me so happy with how many messages I’ve seen of sellers who have had similar experiences and knowing we’re all in this together ❤️

Littlmouse18 So sorry for your losses, ladies & Thank you all so much for sharing. ** Big Hugs ** x

MisstressLeyla Seeing all this and how many of us experienced the pain of misscarrige as much as it hurt it just goes to show that it's not our fault...things happen, destiny takes its own those first days it's always most important to hear ''it is not your fault''😭😭 Stay strong all of you beautiful Queens! We are so fragile yet so strong at the same time🌈♥️🌈♥️🌈♥️

NataliaXO @Fragolina80 Thank you so much 😭😭😭

Fragolina80 Thank you for sharing something so delicate and precious to you. I know that feeling myself and believe me that empty spaces will always remain even after years years and even after having your rainbow baby. I got my rainbow baby now but still have the empty space feeling that little baby boy left me. Stay strong, God's time are perfect., When you don't expect it your rainbow baby will be in your arms. My intuition feeling is that it will be soon. ❤️❤️your rainbow baby will be the light after the darkness . Hold on there. It will come soon❤️

NataliaXO @Mysterious_Sinning_Dark_Pariah Thank you love ❤️

Mysterious_Sinning_Dark_Pariah I'm really sorry for your's a very terrible event to have happen to any woman.😔

NataliaXO @MrsG Thank you babe, I’m so sorry for all of your losses as we and baby dust to us both ❤️❤️ I have found that not many people talk about it and if I’m able to share strength and courage to get it the awareness it needs then I’ll do just that ❤️

MrsG I can't even explain the emotions I felt reading this. I've contemplated writing a blog about it myself but just never been brave enough ❤️✨ I lost my baby a year ago next month and have had 7 chemical pregnancy's since. The heart ache and grief is unbearable at times and the site can be a refuge from that. But on the days it's not my inbox is ALWAYS open. I pray for both of us we get our rainbow baby ♥️

NataliaXO @AriesRN I’m so sorry love and thank you ❤️❤️

NataliaXO @TransGuyTyler Thank you so much love ❤️

AriesRN So so sorry, many of us know that pain, myself included. Your rainbow is on the way🌈

TransGuyTyler Thank you for sharing your story. You are so strong and im sending all my love and support to you and your family 💙

NataliaXO @MisstressLeyla Thank you love ❤️

MisstressLeyla So sorry for your hurts and it will hurt a little less every day but you will never forget...💔 your rainbow 🌈 baby is coming and more happier days are before you!🥰

NataliaXO @Midsizeliz Thank you so much 😭🥰

Midsizeliz Thank you for sharing your story! 🤍 Your rainbow baby is coming and will be the sweetest thing & the greatest reward! 🌈 You’re amazing & so strong!

NataliaXO @KateCorbain Thank you so much, that means a lot to me ❤️❤️

KateCorbain I'm so sorry for your losses. I've found I've made space in my life for mine too. Thank you for being so vulnerable ❤️ you've got way more strength than you know! ❤️

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