Selling and Secrets: A Journey of Self-Discovery, Challenges, and Kink

Seller Sellers’ Perspective Selling and Secrets: A Journey of Self-Discovery, Challenges, and Kink

Starting to Sell

I started selling as a birthday gift to myself. I thought it'd be fun to give it a shot. Established in September 2021, I went live online. I was an underrated hit, as my customers would say. I was seen on various websites and interviewed by a channel to tell my kinky story. That was a disaster. I can write a heartfelt letter about why it felt borderline abusive, condescending, or demeaning towards Sex Workers and myself. But I thought, even if it were hostile towards Sex Workers, maybe it would still guide people to me. I was getting slow and steady foot traffic those first few months. I got on to all the websites: sugar babying, selling, and camming. I promoted on every which site. That ended up getting cut short. I got caught about a year later (glad they didn't find this).

Getting Found Out

I got into extreme trouble with my immediate family. I almost got kicked out and got sat down for an intervention. Imagine bawling on the Starbucks patio because your aunt is guilting you for showing off your body. Situations like this are what happens when you come from a religious household. There has to be some snitch in the family. It was interesting. The week I got confronted, even some friends found out. My friends, I could care less. My mother now felt like I had broken her heart. I'm not a fan of her self-victimizing, but to see her cry, hurt me. You do not want anyone to find out without any support. Someone sucks, and you know what they say snitches get stitches.

Returning to Selling

Recently, I've slowly dipped a toe back into the world of selling after the storm has calmed. Sticking to physical items has been easiest. I've been back about three months. It feels good to be back. I love interacting with the buyers; they are adorable. I didn't realize how friendly it can be. I am so happy about that. Not only that, but they get you all hot and turned on with what they do with their items or videos, at least with me. Aside from turning them on, they're great conversationalists and highly uplifting to us sellers. Sometimes it isn't about the sale but socializing and getting to know each other, which sets you up for future selling. Selling is part-time work for me, and this girl works hard to make it a steady income stream. This line of work is so fun. Who knew showing off your titties would make everyone happy. Some of my favorite things to do are panty wears and customs. People have the hottest imaginations. I love reenacting customers' fantasies. It's like you're cumming for them, and when they see those videos, their feedback and compliments make it so delightful.

Exploring My Kinks

Being here has opened my eyes to a different realm in the fetish community. It has also helped me look into my own or expand on what I can offer. Kink/fetish selling has turned me on in quite some way. I dabbled in several sites but ultimately stuck to my faves. I began exploring too. I have been learning more and more about my kinks for the past year and a half. I have been interested in domming, voyeurism/exhibitionism, praise kink, body worshipping, pussy worshipping, and don't even get me started on cock worshipping!! The way I love on dick, oh my goodness! I am waiting for the day I have a regular partner to film cock worshipping on the daily. The biggest kink I've been idly dreaming about is to get gangbanged, ahh, a dream. Imagine selling those panties.

Dating as a Sex Worker

On top of being a Sex Worker, throwing dating in the mix has also been a bit challenging to navigate. I have explored the vanilla world of dating apps only to get boring men. Then when I hop on the "spicy" world of dating, the men are overly aggressive and borderline abusive. I am a switch, but let's establish some boundaries first. My first kink experience was traumatizing. Once I had walked through that door, my throat was met with his hand squeezing my throat. Safe to say, I took a little hiatus from meeting up. Exploring the kink world while wanting to settle down has contradicted me a lot. The kinky people I have met have loved sticking with "play partners," the single life, wanting to stick with the poly-lifestyle, all fine, but dang, anyone out there with a close to traditional living. This year I want to try and make sense of it. I have been establishing my likes and dislikes. As a kinky girl, I want to be in a monogamous relationship, settle down and be a slut for one person and one person only. In the future, I see my partner approving this line of work for me, and they may even participate if wanted/needed.

By DeanaBlake

Meet Deana, your fave 20 something year old shy girl. I love all things sexy, but on the low-low. I love chatting with y'all, but don't waste my time!...

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